No Motivation, But, Got the Car and I think I O'd

So I have been up since, erm...well, I was up and down several times last night taking care of poor Patrick (my dog). He's had the poops real bad and has been vomiting. He's starting to have some pep to his step now, so maybe I'll sleep better tonight? Anyway, I woke up around 6:30 AM, temped and bam. I had this huge temp dip. I couldn't believe it. I think I O'd today and my Husband was even in the mood to make love. However, with the coughing (I have bronchitis and so does he) and his Mom calling, the mood was ruined. I'm hoping we'll finish tonight. ;) Anyway, this has been a long cycle but Dr. Leonard said that it might be. I'm just anticipating those three high temps starting tomorrow and then we'll be on our way to the longest two week wait I've ever experienced. lol.

So we also have been in the process of looking for a new car. From 9 AM this morning until literally 9 PM tonight, I've been in talks with a sales manager, signing contracts, and test driving a vehicle similar to the one we're getting. I ended up getting a smoking deal and am feeling really excited about going and picking it up tomorrow. I love the smell of new cars and this one is ours. :) I'm really looking forward to no more Mercedes problems and Sirius Satellite radio!!!! Woop woop! So we settled on the Ford Fiesta. It's the SE hatchback and it's Oxford White. Here's a pic (not of mine,  this is just a stock photo):

I'm super ecstatic to go pick it up tomorrow. I'm looking forward to car seats and sun shades and all of the hippest baby accessories that I will be able to deck this baby out in. Anyway, I'm way exhausted but I'll post a pic of me and Sy picking up our new ride tomorrow. Adios!

New Car, Free Baby Slings, and Bronchitis...What a Week So Far

So here I lay, Tuesday morning in bed. Normally I'd be on the light rail headed to school, but today is different. I have bronchitis really bad and I feel so horrible. I can't breathe and I'm all congested...my head hurts so bad as well. I know this is probably connected to the flu shot I got about a week ago. I haven't had bronchitis in about 5 years. I know that the reason bronchitis is now cropping up is because of the D&C surgery I had almost two months ago. I got really sick with a fever of 102.5 and chills. Dr. Leonard put me on bed rest, Azithromyacin, and Ibuprofen. After that bout seemed to get better, I went on a trip (planned since January) to Las Vegas to go to a concert. When I got home, the fever was back, only this time, I couldn't breathe, I was hacking up lung, and I had ear infections in both ears. This time I saw the campus Nurse Practitioner. She put me on Doxycyclin, Albuterol Sulfate, ear drops so I could then go in and have them louged, as well as Claritin D, and Flonase. Needless to say, I was a wreck for another 1 1/2 weeks. Now here I am post flu shot with bronchitis. Granted it's not as bad as the first bout, but I feel really horrible. I setup a warm mist humidifier with vapors so that helped last night. I'm making the executive decision however, to not go to class. I'll head to the Dr. and get a note to excuse me. I tried to go to class last time and ended up spending more time outside of the classroom in a coughing fit that it seemed counter productive to why I was even there. Believe it or not, I'm actually coughing worse this time. I digress.

On to the next piece...so my Husband and I have two vehicles that each of us brought (one each) into the marriage. Mine is an '04 Mitsubishi Lancer OZ Rally edition, 5 speed. I love this car but it's the one that was put into de-insured status to save money. My Husband's car is an '03 Mercedes Benz C240, automatic. I hate this car...it's like flushing money down the toilet. Because my Husband can't drive a stick, we're stuck with this one. Recently, we took it in because it was due for a service B and there was something going on with the fuel pump(s). $1600 later, it's still having issues, only this time it's randomly misfiring and burning fuel. It spent all day in the shop yesterday just to make sure it wasn't leaking fuel (as originally thought). Turns out the fuel smell is coming from the exhaust and it'll have to spend 3 more days in the shop and goodness knows how much more money to diagnose and fix it. I finally put my foot down and said enough is enough. No more money is going to go into that vehicle and we'll de-insure it and get mine set-up to drive. We were planning on buying a new vehicle anyway, just not this soon, so I figured the Lancer would work until we were ready. My Husband made a call to his financial adviser (his Mother) last night and told her the situation. She said to get a new car, so her an I are heading down to Ford today to discuss and look at our options. Lucky for us my Dad is a premo member with Ford and he gave us a $759 off coupon that we can use. We won't be financing but buying straight up. I didn't realize we had that kind of money saved yet but he then told me it was coming out of our savings for our house we are going to be building. I was really upset that I hadn't been a part of this decision and my Husband felt really bad. Between the bronchitis and this situation, I feel like poo.

However, I got an email from E-babies Online for a promotional deal on baby slings. I was really excited and thought I'd pass on the information. The company is Seven Everyday Slings and they sell the pouch style slings, not the ones that are being recalled due to suffocation risks. They're really stylish and the deal is this:

Get a sling free and pay just the s&h. Or, get a gift pack for $5 and just pay the s&h. 

Just enter the promo code babies and, bam, it's done. You can send the code to friends

and can even do it as many times as you like, except it's one per transaction. I love free stuff!

The fabrics are so colorful and beautiful...I told my Husband that even though we're not pregnant yet, I'm ordering a few. You can't beat the offer! Plus the site is secure, they accept PayPal, and they are backed by the BBB (better business bureau). Here are some pictures! (All rights belong to Seven Everyday Slings, I do not claim that these are my images, I simply borrowed to show the style/design)

I Will Be Better

First of all, I want to thank my fellow WTE TTC'er, Lindsay (MommyG2Be). I have read this poem over and over and every time I do, I cry. I read it aloud to my Husband last night and through my tears I managed to recite it in a way that even he felt wetness in his eyes.

I Know I Will Be Better

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss, and though they are good mothers and love their children - I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics or money, or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child, I have longed and waited, I have cried and prayed, I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to obtain their dreams, I will notice everything about my child, I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover, I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing I can comfort, hold and feed them, and that I am not waiting to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream, My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense, that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child, that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads to me, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured, I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment and I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed, I have succeeded, I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort, I see it, mourn it and join them in theirs.

I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely, I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, or other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth, and when life is beyond hard, I have learned a compassion that only comes from walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

~ Anonymous